Translation of the song 19歳になりたくない artist Aimyon

明日になれば私

When tomorrow comes

何か変わっちゃうかな

I wonder if something in me will change

どうにもこうにも　想像がつかない

I cannot imagine that in any way

小中高と進んで　逃げ方も覚えた

As school progressed, I also learned of ways to escape

自殺者を笑い　その勇気に拍手して

Laughing at those who committed suicide, clapping at their courage

カメラを片手に　ギターを背負い

A camera in one hand and a guitar on my back

人の話さえも　かすんでく

Even others' conversations grow dim

手放したもの　偽物だったから

The things I let go, because they were all fake

もう　いらない　必要ない

I don't need them, they're not necessary anymore

大人になるたびに

As I become an adult

夢見てばかりの自分が嫌になり

I get sick with myself for always dreaming

数えられるほどの

So I was drowned out by

痛みと苦しみでかき消すんだ

Pain and anguish which were enough for me to count

現実逃避を　繰り返す日々は

The days when I escaped again and again from reality

思えば楽だった　最高の友達でした

If I think about it they were without hardships, they were my best friends

18の今言えることは一つ

Being 18 now, the one thing I can say

あの日の記憶は消えますか

Will the memories from those days disappear?

手に取れる物　それは全て欲しい

The things I can obtain, I want them all

けど　今で十分な気がする

But, now I feel that I have enough

大人になるたびに

As I become an adult

見たくないものを見ては　泣いちゃうし

I cry when I see things I don't want to see

本当の自分に気づくことは少し怖いんだ

So I'm also a little afraid of recognizing my true self

18の今思うことが一つ

Being 18 now, I think of one thing

何故人は減る命に祝いを捧げるの

Why do people celebrate their abating life

強くはなりたい　でも弱くもありたい

I want to become strong, but I also want to be weak

私のままでいたい

I want to be as I am

思い出せないもの　どこかに忘れてしまった宝物

The things I can't remember are treasures that I've lost somewhere

一度握った手も　知らぬ間に離れてしまったんだ

And I've let go of the hand I once held before I could notice!

大人になるたびに

As I become an adult

見たくないものを見ては　泣いちゃうし

I cry when I see things I don't want to see

本当の自分に

So I'm also a little afraid

気づくことは少し怖いんだ

Of recognizing my true self