Translation of the song 煙たがり artist Kokoha, Wonderland

存在がないと言えるまで

What should I devour

僕は何を思い喰らうのだろうほら

until I can say that I don't exist?

養豚場で飼われた種のように

See, it seems like

僕等生きないといけないみたいだ

we're supposed to live like a species raised on a hoggery.

一体全体誰のために

For whom in the world

君は泣き笑い日々を嘆いたのか

did you weep and laugh and lament your days?

どんでん返し願えばまたすぐに

If I had wished for an unexpected twist,

サイコロはマイナスを指した

the dice would have pointed to negative soon again.

弱さとダンスダンスステイチューン

Weakness and dance dance stay tuned,

テイクワンツースリー中

take one two three is in progress.

今画面越し覗いてた描いた先の煩悩を

I was just peeking through the screen.

痛む星に汗も拭けないから歌って構って欲しい

For the stars that hurt the worldly desires I've drawn, I need you to sing and bother me because I can't even wipe the sweat off.

まぁ存在感が狂ってく 相対性も揺らいでる

Well, the sense of existence is getting crazier.

この世界を変えてみる前に

Before trying to change this world where relativity is shaking,

知らない見えない闇を君にさよならって歌って欲しい

I want you to sing goodbye for the darkness that I don't know and can't see.

体内中を巡ってく 覚醒感染み込んでる

It travels through the body. The stimulant feeling is soaked in.

いられないこんなとこに僕には

I can't stay here.

向かうべき場所があるどこだかわかるだろう

I have a place to go. You know where it is, do you?

繰り返しもがいた果てに

After struggling repeatedly,

君は気づいてしまうのだろう

you will realize that,

まだ第一章第一話も終わってない

you haven't even finished the first chapter, or the first episode.

一歩目も踏み出せてはいない

You haven't even taken the first step.

きっと誰もがずっと思っているけど

I'm sure everyone has been thinking about it for a long time,

発しないしそれか知らんぷり

but no one ever says it or even cares about it.

そんな未来を世界は汚れきったと切って

The world will dismiss such a future as dirty thing.

さっぱりスッキリしちゃってる

They will feel refreshed and cleaned up.

見えない聞かない言わないスタイル

They are good at don't see, don't hear, don't say style.1

いつか猿のように成り下がるか？

Are we going to be degraded and turn into monkeys someday?

別に猿を馬鹿にするつもりはない

I'm not trying to make fun of the monkeys.

ただ形だけってのはイヤ

But, I just don't want it to be just a formality.

まだワクワクしていく

I'm still excited.

指咥えて待っているけど

I'm waiting with my fingers in my mouth, but

どうも調子上がらんしもしかしてここ終点か

I'm not getting any better, and maybe this is the end of the line.

これ以上も以下でもないものに

I can't

願いは抱いてけない

wish for anything more or less.

足んない愛欲しがってく 関係性を睨んでく

I'll be wanting more than enough love. I'll stare at the relationship.

戻れないキライを目の前に

In the face of an irreversible hate.

痛みを抱き寄せる声にまた会おって残したい

I will say, see you again to the voice embracing the pain.

心身を蝕んでく 確信犯追い込んでく

It's ruining your body and soul.　Chase in convinced criminals.

渡せないこんなとこに

I can't give you here.

君には悩む時間はない

You don't have time to worry.

今すぐつながろう

Connect with us right now.

さよならなんて言えないよ

I can't say goodbye.

現実を知っていても

Even if I know the reality.

どれもこれも絶対無理って

You can't do any of this.

うっさいいっさい言うなよ

Stop telling me all of that.

さよならなんて言えないよ

I can't say goodbye to

その中で描いたもの

what I drew in it.

存在感が狂ってく 相対性も揺らいでる

The sense of existence is getting crazier. The relativity is shaking,

この世界を変えてみる前に

Before I try to change this world.

知らない見えない闇を君にさよならって歌って欲しい

I want you to sing goodbye for the darkness that I don't know and can't see.

体内中を巡ってく 覚醒感染み込んでる

It travels through the body. The stimulant feeling is soaked in.

いられないこんなとこに僕には

I can't stay here.

向かうべき場所がある

I have a place to go.

今すぐ君と向かわなきゃ

I have to go with you right now.

これから起こる物語の序章を見つけに

To find the first chapter of the story.